Remembering the life of my sweetheart Brittani
December 16, 1989 – April 4, 2012
Cancer slowed her down on earth, but God reached down, saved and healed her in Heaven. Rest well, until we meet again my love ♥️🙏🏾
Today I just want to share some pics of Brittani’s life throughout the years from 8 days old through her early 20’s. Some of the pics have been shared many times, some have never been shared.
Brittani or “Brit” as I called her, was an angel amongst us. She was most certainly God’s child. She cleaved to Him, walked in Faith and encouraged us all to do the same. God spoke to her continuously throughout her cancer journey through His people and often told her, “Do not worry and do not fear. Your life and this journey is meant to inspire others and bring them to me. There are 3 angels surrounding you and you are covered in my arms always.” My baby girl never forgot that meeting with God and the message. She lived her life according to it for the remainder of her time here on earth. 2 weeks before she passed away, she woke up from a dream and told me and some family members everything God told her. He gave her instructions on how to bring the family together for a mighty celebration and fellowship. The instructions were very detailed, and we listened as we wrote each detail on a pad of paper. She said this was all she wanted, was for our family to be united, not just for the celebration but going forward. 1 week later, on a Wednesday we brought her dream to fruition and what a GRAND celebration it was! My heart nearly burst with Joy and I could hardly contain my emotions from the love we were shown.
Once our neighbors got wind of what we were doing, they came and showered us with boxes of pizza, desserts, drinks etc… there were so many family members who came that or neighbors across from us were directing traffic in front of our home. Another neighbor of ours came and cut our grass front and back and another neighbor stopped to give Brit and the family a word of encouragement. To this day Angela (neighbor) says that she never could’ve imagined that Brit would’ve ended up inspiring and encouraging her. Angela said she left our home so filled with the spirit and it is something she’s never forgotten. Talk about God’s Grace during a time when it could’ve very easily been a bedside vigil. Some family members were incredibly sad, but Brit would not have it! She demanded everyone be in celebration mode and absolutely banned any sadness from the home or her bedside. At this time, she was in and out of consciousness, but when she was awake, her spirit was extremely strong. There was simply no mistaking the fact that God was ever present and she was closest to Him during that very sacred time. I made sure to take heed to everything she said then for step-by-step instructions on day to day life because I knew He was speaking directly to her and we were indeed in the storm of our lives as a family.
When I look back over this time, I know without a shadow of a doubt that God carried us all through that incredible, fateful time. I’m so very grateful to God for the journey He took me on with my sweetheart. For the incredible gifts, lessons, miracles and wisdom. I learned the MOST about life during our time together. For 22 years together, we witnessed every Fruit of the Spirit; Love, Joy, Peace, Long-suffering, Gentleness, Goodness & Faith. What an incredible #GiftOfTime I spent with my baby girl who is now a beautiful angel in Heaven.
My grief and mourning process as her mom can only be described as faith-filled, long-suffering, excruciating at times, beautiful and ugly, but blessed, enlightening and eventually a beautiful awakening. After she answered the call to Heaven, my faith grew day-by-day, step-by-step and moment-by-moment sometimes. I scratched, clawed, climbed, prayed, searched, begged God and prayed more fervently for a higher truth because I could never allow myself to believe that God would ask me to suffer so greatly in missing and grieving her without a higher purpose on the back end. Through 7 years of grief and trauma therapy, I finally discovered the higher truth and that is; my sweetheart very boldly and courageously answered God’s call to Heaven and she was well aware that it would be the one thing that would bring about my own personal spiritual awakening. She said to Him, “Yes, I’ll go first.” That truth alone, broke me down as it gives me an insight into not only how much she loved/loves me, but in how much more my Savior in Heaven loves me. It is something I have to rectify to understand daily.
On my journey through grief, I eventually discovered that I HAD to seek out God daily (give us THIS DAY, our DAILY Bread) for peace and comfort to make it through. God met me where I was — rock bottom and He saved me! Glory to the LIVING God in the absolute HIGHEST! 🙌🏾 I thank Him daily for the gift of the Holy Spirit who teaches me ALL things and comforts me. I count it ALL Joy! I honor God with my life and Give Him ALL the Glory, Honor & Praise for all He’s done for me.
This is an excerpt from my book, “Un-Masked, Un-Broken, Healed & Set Free”
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.